I Love to Read, I love to Think. I love to correct My Prejudices if they are in the danger of becoming boring or obsolete..
I love the abundance of happiness if it comes to me.. So usual like others, isnt It ? Whats new in it...
But hey one more thing that Sometimes I love melancholy and Re-Silence too..
But by sitting in a small cubicle and restraining myself for my Bread & Butter ( In fact minus butter ) , how to do all those loving things, is still a question for me... and in fact its a question for all who is doing something not because of passion, but due to the reason that its giving somewhat a Fat or Thin PayCheque, whatever..
I dont know who I have become ?... Am I myself or just a replica of something who is enacting to make someone else happy rather than myself..
I really want to be selfish who is more happy in making myself happy without bothering that what others are thinking of or what others like.. Might be this definition of Selfishness is wrong here.. If I would really be able to do it, then my life will be one of the Idiot character of 3 Idiots..
I feel full of bliss when i have to stay calm without the worry of my daily share of Bread, without the worry if Luxries of life.. Just staying in the vicinity of Nature, reading , thinking, Writing and enjoying each bits of moments..
This is the fear inside me that if I do the work which I like, would I be able to pay my mortgage or not ? Would i be able to complete all my liabilties or not and all those stupid blah blah fear ...
Still uncomplete story.. Will Add Some more later..
In between , Soon I will write one another piece here that How I have been declared Poor, not by myself, but by other..Hope You like that..
There is nothing wrong in being selfish but there is definitely something wrong in lacking passion.
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to your post on being labelled POOR :)
I read somewhere "Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out" .. may be this is the real war that you have to fight and win ...make time for all your "loved things" in ur day to day life and who knows all your loved things in abundance might actually make them boring or monotonous!
ReplyDelete@Amateur Expert,Welcome on the board and Thanks for the comment.
ReplyDeleteI think that Passion usually doesnt die if the work you are doing is of your interest or this work really make you get going..Otherwise usually in any other work apart from interest, there can be enthusiasm , but definitely not the passion.. Although a thin line between these 2 words..
@Prathibha Dev, Welcome on this Board.
ReplyDeleteI just loved the sentences and lines which you have written there.. And in fact, its really true in all spehere of life and work and says manything..Let such words keep coming.